Some Basics ...

So, most of you know that I am a married bloke, who does not deserve his wife I might add!
She is WAY to good for me and could do a lot better … that being said lets hit a few other things about me.
I have a crazed dog, well not so crazed as … well she is normal I guess but I am sticking with she has issues until further notice.
I enjoy playing video games, which I can win.
I LOVE Sci-Fi shows!
Also other weird shows too but that’s another issue I think …
I enjoy reading … mostly fantasy books; I’ll be it from the teen section … I told you I had issues before!
I work at a Prison, yea that’s what most people say.
I currently hold a position and regional title of Fleet Maintenance something or other but I am trying to give all of that up with nice weekends and Holidays off to go back to security because my boss after 6 years has decided to be a dork fish.
I might get into that again latter?
My best friend, who I meet in the Army, lives hundreds of miles and a few states away.
I think that works well actually!
We call when we need to talk or feel bad about not talking more often and enjoy the conversation then move on for another month or so then do it again!
I think this works because we really can’t get under each others skin to bad this way … OK it might not be the best plan but we have been friends since 1995’ish so something must be going right, right?
Speaking of the Army, I was only in it from 12/94 to 4/96.
I know!
How could it have changed and altered my life so much and only lasted such a short period of time!
The fact is though it did and I have a lot of scares and issues form it that almost nobody knows about.
That being said, I wouldn’t trade it for almost anything.
It made me the person I am now and put me in the places I am now.
I like things to be simple so that I can just live one day at a time and enjoy what I can of each one.
My Mother and Father stayed together until after I moved out and then separated, and since then they have both remarried.
My Sister married some guy she thought might be OK in the long run and the dice came up he that he wasn’t to bad and they have been happy together now for a long while with there 3 little girls.
I was married, what seems like a lifetime ago, to a different woman … she was more like a roommate and things didn’t work out in the end but that’s how that one was meant to go I guess.
As I said before, I am married, again, and this time it seems like it is supposed to be I guess.
She could do a lot better but somehow she thinks I am OK … or I lied at some point and she thinks I will inherit Millions some day and she is just holding out … wow will she be disappointed!
I, like so many others am just trying to survive and find my place in the world.
Being in my 30’s I would like to think that I might have a clue as to were to look, but I still don’t.That’s the basics so you have a rough ideal of a little bit about me.

So, everyone else is doing it …

So I think that the title says just about everything there is to say about it.
I am not sure what all I will be saying and or doing on this blog or even if I will keep going with it?
I can’t keep up a journal so what in the world makes you think I can keep this up?
I can say that for the friends and family whom I give this address to that you will be learning things about me that you more then likely do not know.
I will be “Coming Out” per say … no not like that … about a lot of different things that over the years I have not been able to say for what ever reason.
I do not know how to tell people a lot of things in person so doing it this way, I’ll be it a lackluster approach, seems like it might work.
Kind of like telling someone you want to break up but not caring enough to tell him or her face to face!
Well I don’t see it that way … yea I do actually … I am looking at it as I have issues and everyone that knows me will agree with that I think!
As like so many others there are a lot of things that so many of you don’t know about.
My Mom and Step Father know a few things, my wife and best friend a few more.
My Sister and her family might have some ideals and my Dad and his Wife I fear are just outside of the loop.
I will be telling things like what all is going on with the VA and work issues.
I will also say things like ‘I don’t want to talk about it’ and I would love that to be respected … yes that means you … no not the other people YOU!
I am letting you in on some of it just so you know but that’s as far as I can go with a lot of it. I can’t wrap my head around some of it and talking about other parts of it just sucks and takes to long to discus.You will see and find out what I am talking about, and hopefully find a few answers to boot in regards to some of it.