It’s normally a shorter conversation on my part but I do try.
We say things like ‘I wish I would have known what I know now back then’, I wish I wouldn’t have’, 'I wish I would have thought of that’ and all kinds of things like that.
You know the lines, you know you have said them too.
I do have some things that I almost regret, and some things I wish I would have done differently but all in all I don’t want to change anything big.
The things I have done lead me to were I am, it isn’t exactly were I wanted to be but it is were I was supposed to end up ... for now.
What in the world would I have done differently you might ask?
You might not but again my Bloguverse so shut up and read on or move on!
Things I wish I would have done …
Kept every movie ticket for every movie I have ever been to.
Worked harder on my writing and spelling skills.
Gotten my ulcer checked sooner, and drank 1% milk instead of drinking a gallon of whole milk a day … I can’t drink that anymore I might add, it's so thick!
Things I might have regretted though if I had that emotion …
How I treated some people who didn’t deserve it, and who in fact deserved so much more.
Learning to late in life that even thought it might be true, you might not need to say it.
Yea, that’s about it … not as bad as I thought actually!
The truth is though, I do look around and wonder how I ended up in Podunk Land.
I wanted to go to the CIA … the cooking school not the government don’t you all know I am all about the antidisestablishmentarianism!
Well, I am actually all about the antidisestablishmentarianism but in truth most people use it incorrectly and I am only using it this time to through a big word into the this blog to try and look and sound smart.
That being said it isn’t so much ‘anti-government’ as so many people think, it was all about not wanting a single church for the US and trying to break away from the Church of England.
Also, it isn’t the longest word (as of 2007 anyway), some lung disorder just took it, brace yourself it might hurt you head …
... Deep Breath ... Pneumonoultramicroscopicsilicovolcanoconiosis …
Yea, so if you don’t go around breathing the dust around active volcanoes you most likely will not get this and then have to learn how to say it!
So back to the point, it is hard to think that I would be against going into the CIA, I mean I have donated with my military and prison time now almost 11 years of my life to the betterment and safety of my fellow Americans … sounds good that way doesn’t it :P
I actually had fun and wanted to stay in the Army too ... crazy ...
To some other point, everything I did lead to today and more so to tomorrow.
I have in no particular order … a job with benefits, a dog, a house, friends and a wife.
I wake up happy most days, pain yes but happy when I look around.
I know I will never make it big or rich.
I am not looking for a promotion at work.
I only wish for better for others because over all I am doing gooder and gooder!
I still have goals, but I don’t have dreams … that’s sounds sad doesn’t it?
The truth is though, I am living so many peoples dream as it is, so who am I to ask for more?
Everything leads to a point, can’t change the past … just learn to deal with it!
A lot of people are stuck in the past, I am sorry for them.
They can’t break free, it was just to bad, and I understand that … but for the rest of us, lets look forward to the future and what we still have to do trying not to be lost in our own pasts.
(Sorry, best picture I could find ... close to the point ... right?)
Do I like my past, not always but it made me who I am and placed me where I needed to be to end up in this spot.
So many people are loosing their homes because they lost the jobs and it isn’t looking like it will change soon so again, so how can I complain?
I am blessed and living the dream.