Things on my mind …

I haven’t posted in over a week.
… La Wife says she can’t believe that I didn’t post about July 4th!
I know I said I would try and not do that, but, I did and you all either have to deal with it and move on … or, deal with it and move on!
So, why not tell you all why I have been slacking?
I am finding out more and more about things my X-boss has said to people and things are starting to come clear as to why so many people stopped talking to me … he lied, a lot.
I am dealing with some medical stuff like so many others of you out there and trying to figure out just how good and or bad of an ideal exploratory surgery is.
I just found out that a story that I have told for over a decade, and that changed my life (I thought), has in fact turned out to be a giant lie that no one can figure out.
I don’t want to tell you what it was or anything about it … I know isn’t that nice?
I never told you the story so it isn’t like you all have missed anything right?
Don’t even start with that it wouldn’t have mattered if I hadn’t just told you all that something was wrong.
Yea, I am typing this out with an evil smirk on my face.
I think you all should also know that this is the first time, in a while, that I almost feel like myself since I found out, so it sucks to be you all, but, at least you can all feel better in knowing the fact that you are helping in my healing.
I have also realized that I have a weird collection of people in my life.
I know, where did that just come from?
Let’s start this off with it is all my fault and I take all the blame … now read on and feel bad about yourselves as needed.
I have segregated myself that is for sure.
I am a recluse and a hermit and am happy being that.
Shut up I know I have issues and know it doesn’t make since.
That being said …
My father and I talk about once a week or so.
It is almost always pleasant and I can’t remember the last time we have had a fight … wow, darn dad you are working harder at this then I give you credit for aren’t you!
My Mom and I talk, well when not busy in life, about once a week also.
The last time we had a fight was on a cruise … it’s strange the things I can remember … but that was solved somehow with people dropping it and notes being passed under doors.
My Sister and I talk, well, to say every few months is almost putting it nicely.
When we do, we laugh and have a good time and then I ponder why we don’t more often.
Well, raising 3 little … La Bandito’s keeps her way busy?
Is that right?
I doubt it … any how, She lives a fast life and has forsaken her only sibling.
(Insert Guilt here)
It’s my fault on that one too though I guess, I am invited to things but they are so far away and last minute (That one is your fault sis :P)
My Brother-In-Law, we have fun when together but he is always on the run working and also helping to raise the 3 La Bandito’s.
Has anyone else caught on that I use my Spanish just, well wrong?
Let’s see, my Dad’s step kids, well we meet so late in life that we don’t talk.
My Stepfather, well, he calls about once a week and is an all right guy.
He is a good guy and fun to be around … needs to buy me something nice to refresh my liking of him though … my love can only be bought after all.
My Stepmother is all right too.
Nice and pleasant and to good for my old man.
She makes him happy though and that’s good enough for me.
Lets see, In-Laws!
I see them more then my own family.
They are cool and invite us to do stuff all of the time, La Wife drags me off and, well that’s about it … I go.
I have nothing bad to say about them, but just to upset La Wife I will also not say anything nice about them … or her for that matter …
Although a lot can be said in that category, they are good people after all.
K, so where am I going with this you ask?
Other then La Wife and the above mentioned people, I have nobody.
Go ahead and say my old Army buddy who still needs a nickname …
He and I talk once a month or so, and that’s about it.
We have a blast and will drop an hour talking like schoolgirls but then nothing again till the next time.
O yea the point, I don’t really have one other then the people I know and hang around with is a small circle or people I find worth my time.
Thanks for being part of it and I will not bad mouth you all anymore then is necessary and once it is no longer entertaining I know I should stop then too!
Now, for the bad part of this … Ying and Yang people … something has changed and I am rather upset no one noticed
I have scene my mother, father, mother-in-law and father-in-law … even a sister-in-law now that I think about it.
My In-Laws noticed though … remember the good people comment mentioned above.
All of you saw me!
The only thing in regards to the subject I am about to talk about is my sister!
O’yea, now it all makes since doesn’t it!
You regret it already and are trying to think how you can get yourselves out of this situation and let me tell you now, you can’t!
La Wife and I sat down to have a quick dinner with my Mother and Father-in-law and they bring up my sister and look me over completely … that’s right, you 2 are getting the blame!
Because although my Father was a detective, we don’t expect a lot of observation skills from him when he is recovering from knee surgery.
My EVIL Mother and Father-in-law made a point to say that … hum … she needs a nick name too now if I am going to bring her up now doesn’t she … Chico for now will work I guess … But that Chico has been going to the gym and is looking great and then about how wonderful and great she is.
How she is a beacon of light in this horrible world and they are just proud that they can claim her in there lives for without her there can be no light, or something like that I didn’t pay attention because lets face it, they think highly of everyone … it’s an old person thing I guess … if I keep this up I think I am going to be written out of the wills so I guess I need to drop this one and quickly …
To the point though, wow, I am rambling but I have to make up for not posting last week.
I had, at that time, lost almost 60 pounds also.
I guess this proves that everyone else see me the same way that I see my self, a fat butt!
La Wife says I am a fool but how can the people closest to me not have noticed?
It is to late now to say anything and anything you will say will just be considered a back peddling of sorts so don’t even bother
So, thank you for either proving me right to La Wife, or making me feel like you all care when in fact you don’t.
Yea, I think that works.
Chico, you have one chance to be the best family member in my book.
That’s if you say anything the next time you see me … then again who knows when that might be?
Well, I am back to feeling bad again so thanks for helping me revert back to the pain and suffering that keeps me going.
Ying and Yang …
And I wonder why the doctor keeps asking me if I am depressed … and the lady at the ammo store …

PS – Buzz is doing fine.
He is flying around with his friends and doing his own thing … he does stay behind some times all by himself but I think that’s just because his wing might hurt to bad to fly as far as the others … or, he smells bad and they don’t want him around?